Change is good.

I would like to introduce, PiecesOfE.com. The domain forwarding isn’t working at the moment, but hopefully it will after a bit of time (I just registered it). If you have erinanddavidd.com bookmarked, don’t worry…. it is paid through October 4 or something, so you have a few months to change your bookmark before it goes away forever. Played with a banner idea too and sorta like what I got… need a better picture b/c the one that I used is not in focus, but HELL, neither is my life so I guess it fits. And the grumpy face I have on is rather fitting too. We’ll leave it for now.

I also went to the book store today and got a few self help relationship books:

• Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus (I shit you not, I bought it b/c it came highly reccommended by family)
• How to Heal a Broken Heart in 30 Days - A day-by-day guide to saying goodbye and getting on with your life (I fall in love HARD and don’t mend very well)
• Been There, Done That, Kept the Jewelry – turn your tarnishd dating past into a brilliant romantic future (I must admit the title made me buy it, but it is interesting)
• Calming the Anger Storm (yeah, I have a few issues there – trying to fix)

I’m also reading my Harry Potter when I get time, which isn’t much these days. And today I realized something… I need to meet my next man in Borders if David and I cannot patch things. I think I will start hanging out there on Friday and Saturday nights, sipping my coffee and reading. Hey, it’s better than a bar, right? Plus I can improve myself by reading and doing research. And I decided I need a new man checklist and it will inlude (#5 is the new one – the others were all there before and just never written down):

1. Must be intelligent
2. Must be funny
3. Good-looking wouldn’t hurt either
4. Must cook
5. MUST READ!!! (hey, it turns me on that a man would want to better himself and learn – and it is something David did not do)

I also bought a very simple journal to write in… not that I don’t want to write here, but I don’t think the f-bomb is very appropriate reading material for my family and quite frankly I want to write it every other word right now… and so, the writing journal. I’ve tried a journal before and I don’t uaully keep up on them for long, but maybe this will be different… could be a best-selling novel someday. My life is certainly dramatic enough.

And then there is this song: Beautiful Disaster by Jon Mclaughlin.

She loves her mama’s lemonade,
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she’ll find someone to need her.
She swears that there’s no difference,
Between the lies and complements.
It’s all the same if everybody leaves her.
And every magazine tells her she’s not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
And she needs someone to take her home.
She’s giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they’ll see that she’s lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she’ll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection.
She’s not a drama queen,
She doesn’t want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired
She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.
Cuz she’s just the way she is, but no ones told her that’s ok.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home
And just needs someone to take her home.

Why is it that when you go through something like this, all of a sudden every song fits perfectly and makes you freaking cry! I like this one too: Better Than Me by Hinder.